the invizible one...

2009-04-15T17:00:00.000+08:00

Ok since I'm so uber bored in office, and as per grace's request,

I'm finally blogging after "forever".

So she wants me to blog my feelings on receiving my enlistment letter. here goes.

i) Frankly, i'm quite excited to go in (and get over it asap.)
ii) Quite sian, cause i only have a 3 week break after attachment before i enlist.
iii) Gonna have to grow up. and real fast.
iv) Thinks to myself: "Damn it's gonna be 2 long years."

`itscomplicated

P.S. and the bloody cough and flu is driving me insane.

2009-02-02T14:42:00.001+08:00

2009-02-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

here's my update.

I'm sick today and gosh it's feb alr!

2008-12-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

ok. so i haven't exactly been updating this almost dead thing.

and now. i just felt like it so here goes nothing...

woke up today for service, heard the chior sing for the third time alr, but it never failed to make me think of the words. to just sit back and consider the greatest gift that was given 2000 years ago. after the msg by uncle harry, was the usual every year gift exchange. well. maybe this year was more of a receiving role. i've been so busy with school that it kinda slipped my mind.

so anw. went to vivo with some people. ok rather 20 odd for lunch, while a few others went to PS. had carl's jr. with xin an, while the others had LJS, pastamania and random food. sat at the sky park there. after lunch, we stonned there for awhile before we broke up into smaller groups to walk around vivo while waiting for our movie: Bedtime Stories, to start. went with jordan and xin an to toys 'r' us. haha, i guess, looking at the so many toys kids have nowadays, we kinda wondered how we actually passed our time when we were younger.

after the movie, which was hilarious, came home with danna and elena. slpt till 9pm and now i'm here. anw, school tmr, which billions of people will agree, sucks, after a long break.

so nights.

2008-12-05T01:20:00.002+08:00

well. if not for FYP, i would still have been able to make it for YC. my CT is on tues, like last year, but FYP needs me to stay in school for the week! ARGH!

oh well.

when for NS Med. Check Up yesterday morning with vig and colin, PES E los. good and bad la. whatever la. see whether i can up PES when i go in los. bad thing is i gotta go bad on tues agn for another blood test. waste time sia.

IKEA in the afternoon for lunch and sakae at night. i'm crazy.

nights. or rather, morning.

2008-11-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

How often do you see the sky in this colour?

2008-11-22T11:45:00.002+08:00

I want it to be the weekend for like a long time to come.

haha. and i finally got a psp, say two weeks ago. just didn't bother to update. new laptop this week, cause the old one died on me and all work was like soo gone. =(

i don't know, school is just driving me insane.

-i'm daily depending in Him

2008-11-11T14:45:00.000+08:00

OMGOSH! melting...

2008-11-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

“You can shed tears that she is gone,

or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,

or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,

or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,

or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that she is gone,

or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.

Or you can do what she'd want:

smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

- David Harkins

2008-11-05T11:50:00.005+08:00

watching the elections on CNN, can sometimes be rather disturbing.

seeing Obama win because he deserves it is good. but the fact that Mccain is catching up real quick still proves something. Deep inside, people still can't accept that Obama would probably be the first black president. I don't know.

we'll just wait and see.

________________________________________________________________

10 mins after my first post,

Here it is, Obama won! Landslide!

The 44th President of the United States of America

297 to 139 votes.

we have just witnessed history.

gosh. i do realize that this is the first time i've been so into politics. i spend a good part of the day actually chatting with my friends about stuff that don't affect our lives over lunch and msn. and i just had to watch the news on CNN and MSNBC.

oh well. keep to your promise Mr Obama. Change.

2008-11-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

it was a good day.

did some catching up with her over dinner. its been 2 years since we last met. cool.

soon yea soon. =)

2008-11-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

its been a year already. 03.11.07

2008-11-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

i know i know, i'm mr. boring. haha. i have no life.

so today was friday and YES! ITS FRIDAY! but i din start off really well, woke up really drowsy from my slow recovery from flu and cough. to make it worse this terrible headache raged in my head for nearly the whole friggin day. so i wasn't really in the mood or shape to do any hard work. thus, i finished reading my novel in the lab. and to make things even "better", the weather was really really hoooot, made my head wanna blow. thank God for air conditioning!

around 5, bryan msged to to ask if wanted to hang out. so we decided (amos, bryan, darius and i) to meet at somerset. dinner was at suki sushi. and yea so we walked around orchard meeting people in ridiculously thick and hot halloween outfits. oh well. thats their prob. haha. met someone! (won't mention your name, privacy reasons) along the way. so talking and walking along the way past wisma and then on to newton mrt where we sat and chatted for awhile before bryan and i caught the 1145 train home and yea now i'm here.

Thank God for Air Conditioners!

2008-10-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

Its been a real long time since i last posted.

partly because school has been very hectic and partly because i've been either too lazy or shagged to bother to type.

oh well, will be my short update.

YES! Liverpool won man. Alonso is the man la! haha.

I actually can't believe that i went to watch HSM 3. i paid $8 to see basketball guys sing and a school where everyone could dance. slightly corny, but i guess it was romatic.. some songs were nice.

Whoohoo. its a holiday tmr man! soccer at the cage and bbq in the evening.

so thats abt it, till the next post.

bye.

2008-10-10T23:30:00.001+08:00

Today was Dad's 52nd birthday.

and it'll be Nat's turn in a matter of minutes.

So anw, before that, was in school for the looong week which has thankfully ended. had training today so it kinda whipped up an appitite. i think.

dinner was at park hotel, after that, when to get nat's brithday present. and get some medication cause my lip still hurts.

Picture time.

The Table. (duh!)

The Birthday Duo.

Mum and Nat.

The Desserts.

The Spammed.

I tried to get creative with the food.

Some failed artistic shot.

anw thats all. yay i get to wake up at 7:30am tmr.

2008-10-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

things that get me through a 10 hour day.

2008-10-07T19:45:00.001+08:00

i sincerely affirm that i am dying in school.

not from the lack of sleep, but the boredom that stretches itself over 10 hours, from the moment i step into the lab till the moment i step out.

damn. my life has officially ended.

i have nothing more to say about anything.

hello crumpler!

2008-10-06T07:00:00.002+08:00

this is the first time i've ever woken up even before the sun has risen on a weekday (well, at least in the last 3 years).

its hard to believe that i'm already beginning my final semester in school alr. well, with that comes a 57 Final Year Prison sentence.

i really do not know how i am actually gg to survive 10 hours a day trying not to die in school.

anw, off to school.

2008-10-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

Update for the week.

its been sometime since i last blogged. haha and frankly im quite ok with it. i used to say that "blah blah blah... i'll blog less and all" (but never did carry that out.). But i dont know. im starting to think that blogging is a waste of time. (which in actual fact is true, but i blog for memory cause as of late my memory has been ailing). nonetheless, after i have been blabbering so much, heres the update.

26.09.2008

Celebrated Amos' birthday at ECP with quite a few people, say 30 plus, did a remix of a song with yeo. haha. then like after every had left, 8 of us stayed back and played bridge and chased cats through the night. super hilarious i tell you. left ECP at arnd 6 plus the following morning.

27.09.2008

At 7 plus in the morning after a crazy night of fun, we had breakfast nearby and headed home. sean, bryan and i took this uber long bus ride to YCK interchange. sean walked, bryan mrt-ed and i cabbed home. reaching home, i took a quick bath and had a super deep 45 min nap before i had to go to church to get ready for the DW children's day special. made it thru the day with that little sleep and went for dinner with the usual peeps at the usual place. reached home at 10pm and i was conquering lalaland by 1030.

28.09.2008

Woke up fresh, after a good nights sleep. headed to church for morning worship, ministry and CEP. after it all, stayed back for song practice, learnt this new song, "Instead of Me". and then i decided to give gospel a miss cause i was still a wee bit tired out from the last two days.

29.09.2008

Monday. I forgot what happened.

30.09.2008

Woke up just in time to catch mythbusters. Stonned at home till around 7pm, then i left to meet bryan for dinner before going to play soccer at the cage from 10pm to 12 am.

01.10.2008

After soccer, a few of us went for supper in bedok till around 2am then left to pick darius up before going to to bryan's house to watch part of two soccer matches, then we played bridge till arnd 6 plus and then decided to sleep. slept till 9am, but by then we still felt tired so slept on till 11am. when we woke up, guess what, bridge again till 1pm, when the rest went out to stone and i came home to take a short nap before meeting, jp, lucius and bryan to go meet the 1989 girls for a bbq a mel fong's house. came back and slept.

02.10.2008

Thursday. i know its just two days ago(cause i'm alr into sat morning), but i seriously forgot what happened. i think i stayed at home. oh well.

03.10.2008

today ah. woke up rather late as well. then in the evening went to meet jordan, xin an, ren an, lydia and danna for dinner. after walking around, we decided to got to the Singapore Art Museum to look around. before going to raffles city to stone for awhile. after a train ride and bath, i'm here.

and thats all for now. nights.

2008-09-25T17:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Christabel Heng!

you're old alr man/woman!

anw, gonna back date this post to tuesday.

23.09.2008

woke up at like 11.30am, just half an hour before my daily dosage of mythbusters, enough time to stone in the bathroom and turn on the com. arnd 2pm bryan decided to switch today's outing to then(tuesday). So after this and that, smses being flown arnd, it was decided that we should meet at city hall.

then when it was time to leave, i left. and because i left in such a hurry, i did the most stupid thing imaginable, instead of taking sing dollars, i took malaysian ringgit, cause both 50 dollar notes are blue. anw, so i had to make a detour to lot one to get the money changed for a very miserable exchange rate. after that, i made my way to city hall, reaching there, i waited for AWHILE for the rest to come, namely bryan and amos. darius, wesley and nat chia were at suntec then. anw after meeting them we decided to eat at marina square. considered Changing Appetites at first, but came to the conclusion that it was too expensive so we went to Carl's Jr. instead.

After a somewhat less expensive dinner, and loads of laughing at the dinner table, we took a walk to the steps of marina square to sit, stone, talk and laugh more. did that till around 11pm then we left. walking to the mrt station and getting home wasn't fun but well, inevitable. reached home at 12.10am and took a bath and slept. day over.

now this blog isn't so dead anymore. XP

2008-09-21T21:20:00.003+08:00

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the skyand he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life had flashed before him,he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his lifethere was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,you'd walk with me all the way.I don't understand why, when I needed you most,you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious child.I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints,
That was when I carried you."

2008-09-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning not realizing that it was already saturday.

gosh the week really flies. oh well.

during the week, it was rather cool, like when i got my results or when i went out to stone with amos and darius. but it so wasn't cool when i got the letter from mindef. sucks man, totally spoilt the week. well it , means the army beckons.

today, had yp, did BS with the guys and after that went for the combined RFG with the marine parade group. led in games with jordan and xin an. super hilarious, even the adults were laughing non-stop. then joel gave the msg, and yea. it was really cool having this combined RFG cause we never had it before with the MP grp.

so yea.

life goes on.

2008-09-16T01:55:00.002+08:00

Its 1:55am now,

but I'm super high!

WHOOHOO! i got my results back just a few minutes ago and i did better than I had expected! wahahahaha!

Thank God!

and to you (: thanks alot too (:

2008-09-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

We walked from Somerset to Dobhy Ghaut, then on to City Hall and Marina Square, finally stopping at the Esplanade to stone.

On the way, Amos, Darius and I met this interesting guy, he was a painter who came from Brooklyn, New York( reminds you of someone? that Heroes guy, Isaac Mendez). Cause he wanted to look for Peninsular Plaza and so we took him there and on the way we got to know him. Seriously, he is one cool guy.

Anyway, stoned firstly at Gloria Jeans Coffee at Marina Square, then on the Roof Terrace of The Esplanade and then at the Esplanade Library.

Pics.

Bye.

2008-09-11T22:52:00.003+08:00

I'm very much bored to death at home by now, so anyway i was blog hopping and i came by izumi's blog and found the story below which hit me.

The Visitor

One particular Sunday we had a visitor in our church.

He arrived early, parked his car, and got out.

Another car pulled up near him, and the driver told him, "I always park there. You took my place!"

The visitor went inside for Sunday School, found an empty seat, and sat down. A young lady from the church approached him and stated, "That's my seat! You took my place!"

The visitor was somewhat distressed by this rude welcome, but said nothing.After Sunday School, the visitor went into the church sanctuary and sat down. Another member walked up to him and said, "That's where I always sit. You took my place!"

The visitor was even more troubled by this treatment, but still said nothing.

Later, as the congregation was praying for Christ to dwell among them, the visitor stood, and his appearance began to change. Horrible scars became visible on his hands and on his sandaled feet.With the changes becoming more and more apparent to all in the church.Someone from the congregation called out, "What happened to you?"

The visitor replied,"I took your place."

-taking my sin, my cross, my shame
raising again I praise your name you are my all in all
When I fall down you pick me up
when I am dry you fill my cup
You are my all in all .

2008-09-09T01:45:00.002+08:00

Gotta Find You - Joe Jonas

Every time I think I'm closer to the heart

Of what it means to know just who I am

I think I've finally found a better place to start

But no one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are

Could it be you're not that far?

C: You're the voice I hear inside my head

The reason that I'm singing

I need to find you I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need

The song inside of me

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the remedy I'm searchin' hard to find

To fix the puzzle that I see inside

Painting all my dreams the color of your smile

When I find you it will be alright

I need to try to get to where you are

Could it be you're not that far?

Been feeling lost

Cant find the words to say

Spendin' all my time stuck in yesterday

Where you are is where I wanna be

Next to you, and you next to me

I need to find you

2008-09-07T23:25:00.001+08:00

'Cause I still believe in destiny,
That you and I were meant to be.
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above,
'Cause I still believe, believe in love.

I Still Believe - Hayden Panettiere

2008-09-01T21:05:00.003+08:00

so i guess today wasn't the start of FYP. the briefing was uber long and kwan eng seng is my ISG supervisor and tutor. so i guess we're cool. and im seeing jimmy again! 4 semesters already leh.

i'll only be starting in a month's time, which means that i'll be graduating (where i mean unofficially ending) slightly later la, cause i'll be doing a different path from the other half. oh well, God has something for me down that path which i was assigned to.

for now, ONE MONTH HOLIDAY!

and to kick it off, met chan today to pass him a few things and for lunch followed by pool. haha and he is booking in soon. well, see you on sat then.

and with the holiday, it means i can make it for the games day at depot on thursday!

2008-08-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

The Nike 10K Human Race.

A race against myself,
A race against the 999,999 other people.
A race that I was not alone in,
A race that was for the people that make me.

it was an attempt that i made to prove my negative thinking wrong. and i guess it did. 1hour 20minutes after i started, the attempt was successful. but the race doesn't end there. a few things i learn from the race, that was even mentioned in uncle kuang cheng's morning message was that:

1. In this Christian walk, we are not alone. With each other to walk through this life here. Not on "per-race-basis", but the whole way through.

2. Encouragement is of the essence. many a times during the race, giving up was always an option that sat on my mind. but with the encouragement and the rest to run with me, nothing is impossible. Similarly, during our walk with God, stumbling and never getting up is always something that we may face, but with encouragement, the walk will be made smoother and never forgetting He who is "... the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121:2 "

- the Race.

2008-08-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

THE RASF OPEN HOUSE WAS TOTALLY COOL!

2008-08-25T20:15:00.003+08:00

PANCAKES!

on the way home just now, i just had the sudden craving for pancakes,

so being as impulsive as i have been the past few days, i bought the pancake flour and "SPAM with Cheese"

so instead of dinner i had pancakes and SPAM.

and because i haven't made pancake like for the longest time. the first one looked toasted, the second one look like an albino and the last one was just nice.

anyway. ya, so here they are. topped with butter and blueberry jam shiokness.

it'll be better the next time round. which will be tmr's breakfast!

PANCAKE FEVER!

so thats all la.

2008-08-24T21:35:00.001+08:00

nice number huh?

2008-08-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

did it have to be that way?

2008-08-22T23:59:00.003+08:00

when to watch the fireworks display from the supreme court.

it was SUPER NICE LA!

the peeps who were there, lemme see,

danna, lydia, dawn, brandon, titus, tokie, amy, baba, chrie, jie, merv, wesley, chloe, nicky, benjamn chia, benjamin goh, jethro and andrew he.

photos coming soon, when i get them cause i forgot to bring my camera.

nights. BB tmr.

2008-08-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

2008-08-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

20.08.2008

exams began today. they also ended today, haha.

you may well say that its really unfair. i kinda beg to differ, unless you've 8 modules with 8 projects, 7 common tests, 27 reports to hand in and 14 presentations to make.

anyway who cares. its over.

which leaves me to have an 11 day break before the official start of FYP which is aka,

FreaksYoungPeople out!

haiz.

went to aunty wee sang ytd. and i realized ive gotta extract 5 teeth. all four wisdom teeth, which means i'll technically be stupid after that, and one molar. its gonna hurt like hell.

back to stonning. bye

2008-08-18T23:50:00.003+08:00

Haven't updated in a few days, but yea.

anw the weekend was good.

on sat, went for BB in the morning, then went to queenway to meet mei, ben, titus and john to get stuff. finally got my converse shoes! haha.

here they are. suiii!

anw after that went for YP at depot, played table tennis with bryan and ya he is good la. haha and i probably suck la so. after that went for dinner at the usual place with the usual people and i guess i ate the usual thing. haha, sorry i lead a mundane life. no la, after dinner we played this super funny game, where you had to think of a noun and when anyone asked you a question you had to reply with that word, no matter how stupid the question was. and the aim? not to laugh for as long as possible. but ya we laughed like mad people.

on sunday, went to church, morning worship and morning ministry was by wong kok seng, where he spoke abt husbands and wives. "Walk with her, not ahead" he said. i mean yea i'm not married but taking it into context to walking with fellow believers, the bride of Christ. looking out for one another. after that was breakfast with the usual people at the same place. sorry i'm a rigid person and i don't adapt well to change. thats why i stick with the same things week in and out. no la just kidding. i just like what i eat. cep was as usual, walking thru 1 John. after church, went to grandma's, haha she was in a good mood this week. came home and stonned, watched the table tennis finals. haha for once, ok not once, i felt really proud to be a singaporean. like how many people can say that your country won an olympic medal after 48 years! then watched the badminton finals with dad, noah and matt, where lin dan trashed lee ching wei. but i guess i kinda wanted lee to win.

oh well.

here are just some of my fav.s shots from the captains ball game on the 10.08.08.

and i took them. there are 402 other photos, but no one is crazy enough to post them all. so here are the filtered shots. enjoy.

Ref. Lydia.

Ref. Ho

"WAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

"I have a vision..."

=D

"It doesn't matter"

Life...

"hmmm..."

"Who me?"

"There must be something i can do."

Standing out from the rest.

My Country, my flag, my home.

bye.

2008-08-15T23:40:00.002+08:00

The ACS(I) Guitar Concert was GREAT!

haha.

good job to jet and josh!

...

haha today, went to watch "Meet Dave" with mei, titus, ben and robyn. SUPER hilarious! and finally chan and lucy have passed out from bslc. lucy i dunno why you kena aslc but all the best! chan, the air force awaits.

anw thats it.

2008-08-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

my life is in a total mess!

6 hours of sleep a day.
17 hours online.
8 hours of Olympics and other documentries.

ya i know the numbers don't add up. i do things simultaneously.

anyway, i'm just getting ready to get rid of my final paper and stone away till the 1st of Sept.

2008-08-13T02:50:00.002+08:00

looking through old pictures sure brings back wonderful memories, of times where things were less complicated and more lively.

i miss those days.

i just realized that i had 4.27Gb of photos that i accumulated over 3 years. oh well, needed the space so i just uploaded them on facebook. not all of it la. but still a fraction.

...

As he walked down the dark alley, he saw wooden frames and a number of doors that were along the path that he walked on. Behind each door, were different items, each with their use in the world. Slowly inhaling a breath of air, he took the first step as he began his journey into what seemed like oblivion. With each foot that landed onto the stone cold marble, he saw the light that was behind one of the doors becoming brighter. Eager to get there fast, he took a quick stride and swung his arms back and forth with military precision in an attempt to quicken his pace. On his second swing, which was harder than the first, his arms hit against one of the door knobs and caused him to yelp as the sudden sensation of a thousand electrical pulses raced through his brain to register the pain.

My sister giggled from her room and admitted her occasional clumsiness, walking into the knob once in awhile.

told you i'm random at this time of the night. i kinda like to refer to myself in the third person. by the way. if you didn't get the story, it was just me walking along the hallway in my house and accidentally knocking into one of the door knobs. kapeesh?

2008-08-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

why do i get the strangest feeling that i am the only one caring?

something's getting in the way
something's just about to break.

i am feeling rather random now. and seriously, i'm bored. really really bored.

i'm sitting at home doing nothing and there's no one to go out with. yet when i get to go out, to school that is, i dread it. the more i think of the FYP nearing, the more i am starting to freakout.

well, this year many guys most probably can't go for YC due to their commitments to the nation. but, esp for my ex-SS class, guess we'll go for XA's commissioning parade.

still on the random note, matt is sleeping soo soundly now. haha. oh well, he's gotta wake up in 4 hours time to book into camp again.

my mind is in a blank now.

so bye.

P.S this was a very very random post. if things don't make sense. its ok. its the wee hours of the morning and people who know me, can testify that i get rather random and high during this time. nights

2008-08-10T21:10:00.001+08:00

This was supposed to be for yesterday, but i wasn't home the whole day to blog so:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

anyway, coming today. the usual i guess. 6 hours of sleep later, i woke up for church and the morning worship and ministry stayed the same. then it was over to mac's for breakfast with the usual guys. CEP followed, covering 1 John 2-3. it was good but i guess abit dry la. after church, we celebrated li ling's "twen~~tith~~teenth" birthday. haha li ling! twenteen ya XD

at one plus, a few guys and i went over to KBCC to play abit of soccer before the captains ball games started. haha, its was FUN! it proved as a good break for many of us including me. and i used william's DSLR to shoot! wheeee. shoot spree sia. and came in 3rd. haha.

gospel followed, where NKK gave the msg and gary was chairman. the SS peeps from depot gave an item. it sounded really nice! but could hear some really distinct voices. like... jon boon, JOLENE!, mei, dawn (cause she sang solo! nice one ((: ) and one more person i forgot! i like the songs. after that nat.mei went for her BYMET mtg and so i left with them but to kathib to meet my parents to come home.

so now i'm here ((:

till the next time. bye.

2008-08-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

08.08.08

comes once in a lifetime! haha

anw today was the last common test that i had and gosh it was good. i guess micheal made it easy for us. and i watched the beijing opening ceremony for the Olympics. and the opening performance was crazy la. 2008 guys doing the same movements at the same time. nice.

and anw tmr is National Day. and look how many peoples' birthday fall on the day. and thats just those that have facebook!

anw Happy National Day and Happy Birthday to the peeps. hopefully i still can go to the esplanade tmr.

2008-08-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

All night I was dreading the meeting, fearing her bizarre glares. Part of me wanted to confront her and demand to know what her problem was. While I was lying speechless in my bed, i even imagined what i would say. But I knew myself too well to think that i would really have the guts to do it. I had made the Cowardly Lion look like the terminator.

2008-08-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

*I'm heaving a sigh of relieve* PHEWW!

PROJECTS ARE ALL OVER!

its such a relieve ok, really cant explain the joy that is in me now man!

but with the end of the project "season" comes the CT's and exams. and today was the start, and what a start it was :( . PIPCS was rather ok but, MAD was really mad. the whole class found it to be super difficult la. just 6 open ended questions and two blank pages to write it all out. die la. just hope that anthony is kind in his marking.

well tmr will be MCN. and oh oh, this gotta be the lamest thing that has come out for the CT's. during PIPCS, the examples that were given were so damn corny can! what man! eg. BigPond Inc. BigFish & Co. then got names like Shishamo, SmallFry, Mr Hammerhead and what not. i was laughing while doing the paper la.

and just counting, i will officially have only have 11 days of break instead of the 45 days for the semester break this year cause of FYP los. sian. final year go take away my holiday and YC.

then after that. ahh i dont even want to think abt after graduation.

well this is my update.

and yes, COFFEE ROCKS! ((:

2008-08-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

nine months. its been that long alr.

2008-08-02T10:15:00.000+08:00

site meter had to go.

its causing problems with IE7 so. bye bye counting.

2008-08-01T20:52:00.003+08:00

Its been some while since i last blogged, cos these few weeks has been a mad rush to get work done for the upcoming submissions. well you can blame procrastination that played a major part in this craze to complete my projects.

i do have have alot to say and yes i am forgeting what i want to type out later in the post even as i'm typing. well my mind is in a blur la. haiz. anw i'll just give an update on what happened in the past week la. i'm getting rather lazy in this futile attempt to revive my "so-called almost dead" blog. and frankly i would rather like to keep it "half alive". ah but whatever la, since i'm typing i might as well continue.

Monday
monday was rather uneventful, besides going to school to get tips for the common test for NKP's module, went for benson's test that was realtively ok i guess. after that waited for awhile and played online games over lunch before going to LBS' lesson to give the final presentation for the "Project Management and Implementation" module. hmm, i guess xue ting and i did it rather well considering the fact that she came late and i wasn't exactly confident at that point of time. then, came home to continue my projects and msn-ed abit. slept at 2am.

Tuesday
woke up at 9am cause i couldn't sleep anymore, and my day was relatively free, cause i didn't have to go to school. i spent the morning redoing the DVBS shirt design and decided to do the YC shirt design. in the afternoon, did more of projects and then at 3 plus i left for school to get that NAPFA done with so that NSB wouldn't continue nagging. did fairly better then i expected, counting that i didn't do much training in the past three years of poly. and then came home with vig, talked aboout old times on the train and laughing our asses out at our youthful folly. slept at 2am.

Wednesday
woke at around 9am again and slacked for an hour before heading down to school. got back my test results for anthony's module. did ok. and after school, came home and worked more, coffee then psycho-ed me to blog again cause my blog was in need of CPRs or as i would put it "Constantly Posting Redundant stuff". haha sorry coffee XP.

Thursday
i forgot what happened. damn, i'm getting really really forgetful. seriously.

Friday
forced myself to wake up at 8:3o am to go to school for john fung's ICTPMI test, which was ok. haha. thn did project till 1:45 pm then went to orchard to meet up with titus, brandon, mei and amos to go to bibi & baba to get stuff. later we decided to go to city hall cause titus needed to get some rugby stuff and amos and i went to the Nike shop at suntec. bought and ankle sleeve cos its killing me (the ankle), after that went back to peninsula to look for brandon, titus and mei. mei got a pair of new shoes and a bag. while i did some camera hunting and guess what, i can get a D40x for only $700 instead of the usual $1188 posted on the Nikon website! i save $500! haha. i'm saving for it alr haha! but first a new crumpler and converse shoes first. sat at some random cafe for awhile and the decided to go for dinner. had LJS and ya, i'm home now.

so i guess thats about it for the week. YP and thanksgiving dinner tmr at amk.

bye.

Oh! i just realised! ITS ALREADY AUGUST!

and i 80% most likely can't go for Youth Camp this year, cause i'm still on FYP. shiiiii....

2008-07-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

What is Love?

What is love?

Is it an emotion?

An expression?

A side effect?

A pain?

A dillusion?

Is love real?

Here is LOVE.

Vast as the ocean,

Wide as the sky.

i was just considering the subject of love, and yes love can come in many forms, they may fail but there is one love that stands. and the greatest love of all is mine to have. God's love. sometimes we go through painful situations and we blame God for not caring. but have we stopped to reflect on our actions leading to that concequence. God, loves us and thus allows us to go through those pains so that we will learn to depend on Him, not on our own strength. i need to learn to lean on Him. thats FAITH.

2008-07-20T22:10:00.001+08:00

((:

2008-07-17T23:11:00.001+08:00

Its so hard to pretend that i don't want to talk to you;

When you're always on my mind.

`whenitallfellapart

2008-07-16T22:09:00.004+08:00

haven't updated this past three days cos its been really busy.

yesterday was ok besides ng kok poh's networking test. it was a _____. besides that i've still got infotainment to hand in by this friday which i burning me like mad alr. man.

today was ok. went for anthony's lesson. and then had an MI0608 class gathering with the PErsonal Mentor (PEM). was supposed to have napfa today, but i ponned so i'll go for next weeks slot.

and this is houng yee's birthday surprise.

HAPPY 20th "LAO SHI"!

anyway got this email that i so must share. you would probably seen some of these before but anyway. enjoy the pictures.

then finally here are some GR pictures. they were taken on the final day, which was sunday. somehow almost everyone was wearing either black or white.

titus and i happened to be in white, and because we're almost the same size, this is abstract art when two worlds collide. XP

thats mine name. photo courtesy of baba. ((:

and this is the "nick" pic. theres nick kan, nick ong and the nick tag.

so thats about all for now.

bye.

`letsgobacktothestart

2008-07-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

gospel rally has finally come to an end!

great job guys. great working with you all and serving the almighty!

so today in CEP did the "caring ministry" and uncle kian huat joined us in the discussion. we drifted abit but nevertheless got things done.

after CEP some of the guys went to play basketball. while bryan, sherman, ben and i went to play pool. at first we went to grassroots club, but then the mat was out so the place was closed for one hour. so we decided to go to amk central. and when we did the place didn't allow under 16's to come in. the uncle was very strict abt it at first. so ben and sherman went to play LAN while bryan and i played pool. after playing for awhile, elena, danna, lydia, claudia and shawn chia came to visit us and so ben and sherman managed to come in. and tho the uncle saw them, he din care. so after awhile, bryan and i took a rest and let the rest play. danna still holds the cue like a rolled up magazine. lol. and the girls did rather ok i guess. at 3 plus. danna left for tuition, so lydia, bryan and i talked while the rest played pool.

ending the pooling session, ben, claudia and i went back to church for the GR setup while elena, lydia, sherman and shawn stayed in amk hub. bryan went home.

so the usual was gospel rally. during the times, i managed to catch up with my bros, xinan, jordan, bryan and lucius.

so thats about all i have la.

`thediaryofjane

2008-07-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

WEEKEND!

whoohoo. yes the weekend is thankfully here. well, at least this week was so hectic compared to last week.

finally went for john fung's lesson today, thn jimmy ended his lecture rather early, so went to amk hub to meet danna, john mark, ben, titus, brandon, sherman and esmond to watch - Hellboy II: The Golden Army. not fantastic for a 2 hour movie. i felt that they were rushing through the story and thus some parts were neither here nor there. other than that i guess i was ok.

After the movie, we left for church for dinner and the set up pf the stuff for the Gospel Rally. things didn't run that smoothly, but it was the best that we gave. and...

Bao Sheng came! its good that he did ((:

GR is on till sunday! so give me a call if you are intrested in coming ya.

anw heres a random photo.

`whoami?

2008-07-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Haley Bannett

I've been living with a shadow overhead,

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,

I've been lonely for so long,

Trapped in the past,

I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,

Just in case I ever need them again someday,

I've been setting aside time,

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love.

I can't make it through without a way back into love.

Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,

I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,

I know that it's out there,

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,

Not somebody just to get me through the night,

I could use some direction,

And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.

I can't make it through without a way back into love.

And if I open my heart again,

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,

I can't make it through without a way back into love,

And if I open my heart to you,

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,

And if you help me to start again,

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

`awaybackintolove

2008-07-09T02:04:00.001+08:00

i'm going crazy already.

2008-07-07T23:22:00.003+08:00

take my hand, hold it tight, dear Lord I pray

keep me strong

lead me on holding Your arms

so that as I face each coming day

I'll know that I'm Yours

all my life, let me be

one after Your own heart

the lyrics really speak to me alot, many times we fail in life - do the wrong things, this and that. but God is always there to hold on to you if only you open your hands to hold on to His. Instead of holding on to this facade of life. Men, having their daily struggle for power and supremacy over the Almighty rages, but if only we took the time to consider the life that He has given us. letting go would be alot less painful if we just opened our hands and let God lead us.

Lord,

Lead me on, keep me strong

in this time and age.

You rule over all.

You know my thoughts,

my wants, and all my needs.

You know what is best for me.

In all Your Love,

You never once forgot me.

Show me the way that i must go,

to be strong in You,

to never let go.

Amen.

`guideme

2008-07-04T21:05:00.004+08:00

YES!

finally ended one crazy week! this week was total MADNESS! so much to do so little time. so many friends yet i see so much backstabbing. so many tests and i'll probably flop a few.

well at least todays lessons started at 1 pm and i suppose jimmy was in a good mood so he released us early, ONE HOUR EARLY! haha. so stonned for quite awhile before michael came and dropped the "bomb". the test that he gave was one big _____. two questions to complete in three hours. the first one was ok which is enough to pass, but i won't score because of the second question. sianess.

THANKFULLY, i got the weekend. super looking forward even though it'll be more or less the same but its waaaaay better then dying in school.

well thats probably all for today.

btw, QUEEN rocks. Freddy Mercury is imba, not to mention gay and dead. but he was a legend. heres one of queen's song that i like.

Too Much Love Will Kill You - Queen

I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be

Too many bitter tears are raining down on me

I'm far away from home and I've been facing this alone for much too long

Oh, I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me

About growing up and what a struggle it would be

In my tangled state of mind, I've been looking back to find where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you, if you can't make up your mind

Torn between the lover and the love you leave behind

You're headed for disaster because you never read the signs

Too much love will kill you every time

I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be

And it seems like there's no way out of this for me

I used to bring you sunshine now all I ever do is bring you down

How would it be if you were standing in my shoes

Can't you see that it's impossible to choose

No there's no making sense of it

Every way I go I'm bound to lose, oh yeah

Too much love will kill you, just as sure as none at all

It'll drain the power that's in you, make you plead, and scream, and crawl

And the pain will make you crazy, you're the victim of your crime

Too much love will kill you every time

Yeah, too much love will kill you

It'll make your life a lie, Yes too much love will kill you

And you won't understand why, you'd give your life you'd sell your soul

But here it comes again Too much love will kill you

In the end...

In the end

`intheend

2008-07-02T21:45:00.004+08:00

i'm feeling rather crazy today so i'm blogging in the biggest fonts possible. ok not the biggest, i can make them BIGGER.

anyway that wass just a waste of space.

today. i had the liberty to wake up at 1030 cause school started at 12pm, which i was also late for. anw cause its wednesday. anthony's 3 hour lesson was the only lesson. so school officially was a lesson away from ending. whatever.

but the thing that scared the crap out of my pants is that. NAPFA is in 2 weeks. and i haven't begun training. which concludes, I'M DEAD.

anyway, heres a random photo.

this one is from the last gamesday that we had.

oh before i end.

this ~~dream~~ nightmare that i had last night (or rather this morning and thus two days late) was freaky. i ~~dreamt~~ nightmare-d that because the FIFA officials saw that the Gremans, especially Ballack were so upset that they came in second for Euro 2008, THEY ALLOW A RE-MATCH! in which Gremany won (after penalty). WTH!

ya, so that will never happen cause the Spainards have alr won!

ciao.

2008-07-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

2008-06-30T04:37:00.000+08:00

SPAIN 1 - GERMANY 0

WHOOHOO FERNANDO TORRES!!!

2008-06-29T20:10:00.003+08:00

"OI, see la, now everyone is calling me coffee, you white chocolate"
thats just qi an. (eh i left a space alr okay!)

i need a haircut. cause the weather is sooo damn hot and i think its long. anw i've got a presentation on tuesday so i might as well look neat at the same time.

gosh, school is starting again. man time passes so fast la. one more month and i would have finished my study term and soon it'll be fyp and attachment. then army will come. sian

anyway today was church, during cep we learnt and discussed abt time management. interesting topic. something i learnt was T.I.M.E, Treasure. Invest. Manage. Enjoy the time that God has given you. then i came home for awhile and played viwawa for awhile with bryan. before we left for church. met lucius and bryan in their no.4's cos they had to book in at 7pm so they wore the uniforms to church. gospel was chaired by uncle kelvin and linus gave the message. again, it hit home on the christian paradoxes. and now i'm home.

31.08.2008 will be the 10KNike+HumanRace. and im running. im trying to get people who can run, want to run, cannot run to come with me! for $26.70 you get a shirt and goodies! ya interested parties register at www.nikeplus.com .

SPAIN VS. GERMANY at 2:45am and everybody is so gonna watch it. guess who i will be supporting? SPAIN LA. there'll be frenando torres and david villa. IMBA!!

and thats abt all i have to say. till next time bye.

`phobia

2008-06-28T22:28:00.003+08:00

haha i'm enjoying my weekend!

woke up at 11:20am today! haha, thn turn on the lappy. amazingly i was one of the first few online. then ly came and started talk, bryan came along and ask us to play viwawa. so cos bridge needs four people, we woke thein frm her beauty sleep. played bridge till 1:15pm, then decided to meet before gg to YP. initially wanted to have lunch, but only thein and i were early. ly was soo late. so did a take away to church.

roo led in singing today, followed by spider and fly for interaction games.after that did the mid-year reflection and review of mark. games ah, didnt really play much, talk to elena and tried covincing her not to study after yp - not to say that studying isn't good but at the right times ya. then the usualy dinner gang - cedric, joel boon, derek, mua, xinan, qian, nicola, danna, elena, ly, clara, joan, jolene, robyn, reann, renee went to TBP for dinner. after that ah. came home la. and now i am here.

church tmr. ciao.

2008-06-27T22:27:00.002+08:00

Well this is just a update on the rather uninteresting week that has just gone by.

common tests were on this week for JC's and most Poly's, so everyone was like mugging and complaining, myself included. haha. i sat at home and stoned on days i did not have papers, but i must say i did study and revise.

a slightly more interesting end to this week was that, besides the short time i spent in school today, went to watch the show "Wanted", loads of violence and slight gore, heavy special effects, limited vocab in the script but the storyline was more or less ok, not to deep nor shallow. watched it with the peeps. and then went to church to help out with the GR thing.

and thus, this is my uninteresting ending to my more or less interesting week.

The Dream

2008-06-25T18:08:00.007+08:00

It was that terrible heartache that was wedged in between, as his heart was caught in the middle of a tug-of-war. It was an emotional struggle to forget the present past. As another tear fell, he then realized that whether, if he having those feelings for her did matter at all. In a mental fight to forget everything, he decided to settle it once and for all. screaming it all out.

As the sun continued to set in the now fading horizon, he took a deep breath of the cool evening air. Slowly, as he opened his eyes with his head tilted upwards, Corey set his gaze into the calm orange sky. The week that had gone by had been a wonderful one for him, the times that he had spent with her were still fresh in his memory. Now, she was "gone". Sometimes, he still couldn't bring himself to accept the fact that she only considered him a friend. As a cool gentle breeze blew by, he saw it. The vision, a flashback of the time when they spent by the sea. He remembered of how the sea breeze flowed through her hair, that soft smile and her eyes that sparkled each time they met his. Rudely being brought back to reality by his ringing phone, Corey answered it still in a daze. It was her! For that moment, his eyes brightened as he visualized her dimpled face that was dotted with a few freckles.

Suddenly he felt like he was on cloud nine, even a simple "hi" from her had taken his breath away. As they spoke, he felt that as if his pain and emotional battle that he had been experiencing was won. The sky was now dark, as Corey ended their call. The emotional struggle had disappeared, the pain had ceased and he felt the world at his feet. Maybe being just friends wasn't so bad at all. He smiled to himself as he got of the ledge of the roof. Pacing steadily across the warm concrete to the roof entrance, his phone rang again, this time it was louder. Trying to answer the phone, he jammed his finger repeatedly into the answer button, but still, nothing happened. It rang even louder still this time, for a moment in time, his world halted to a stop. The skies turned white and crumbled around him.

As sunlight flooded his pupils, he knew. It was just a dream. A dream that he wished he didn't have to wake up from. The ringing? It was the alarm on his phone.

-The End-

I had the urge to type something. haha. lame and crazy story huh ((:

2008-06-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with us right? mann.

2008-06-22T00:16:00.000+08:00

ONE WEEK!

how am i gonna survive the week ahead! haiz!

`why

2008-06-20T14:33:00.004+08:00

gonna play tennis later, so i tot i'll just blog now.

Wednesday:
its past 12am and 4 people are still playing bridge online. one loves the beautiful game of soccer, the other two are best friends and take dunno how to to figure out their partners, of which one of them are prone to sugar rushes, lastly one is the clown typing this. guess who? anw it was jolene's birthday so like dunno how many, but many people met at gombak to go to safra to play laserquest. but unfortunately, guess what, the place was booked like for the whole day la. so anw, it took like forever for the girls to decide where to go. in the end we decided to go to vivo early. went there to get the tickets for the show Get Smart, and i realised that watching the show with 20 of your friends beats watching it alone anyday. DUH! had a starbucks coffee before that, and then after the show, it too another 10000 years for the girls to decided. thus this proves that girls aren't very decisive, but the guys after "hen pecked". uh, nvm forget what i just said. anw went to pastamania in the end and had a baked rice. played bridge again till abt 9pm. then went home to fetch bro and walked with him and matt to yew tee mrt. met bryan, amos and darius at 2310 to go to amos' house to stayover. reached his house at 12am.

Thursday:
settled down in amos' house and, yes, you guess it, we played bridge AGAIN. played till 0245 and then watched the match between Spain and Greece. Spain won after a 90 min 2nd goal. played more bridge and did stupid stuff like lip sync-ing Queen songs. was super funny. thn at like 5 plus, played abit of PS2 thn called it ALMOST a "night". talked and crapped in amos' room till darius, amos and noah fell asleep. talk to bryan till 7am thn went to sleep. woke up at 0945 because amos started "gaying" people. thn went into a WWE frenzy and came out alive with no broken bones. haha. then we went for brunch. came back and played more bridge. sorry. WE ARE BRIDGE ADDICTS.

went to games day still feeling rather alive. we were there early, soo we played bridge. haha, then the games started. soccer, touch rug and frisbee. went fishing for awhile with titus chong and sameul ten. it was fishies all day. caught quite a few. thn wentback to where the guys were and played soccer. finishing games day. this time, everybody took another 10000 years to decide where to eat. some wanted IKEA tampines/queenstown, others wanted T3. blah blah blah. finally, went to tampines mall to eat. by the time we bought our food and stuff it was alr 9pm, then ah someone got another sugar rush, haha. ate and talked till 2130 and thn, it was either bus or train. so took 969 to yishun mrt. the trip was thankfully shorter thn i expected. and played bridge on the bus again. so when i say we are addicts, i mean it. crazy right, took the train home with bro, jan and danna. came home and took a shower and played computer till 1am. and thn went to sleep.

whooo. so this is all i have for now. till the next post.

ciao

`itjustdoesn'trhymewithoutyou

2008-06-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey yo!

yes its picture time. so this post will be in as little words as possible and yar, you get it

so sunday was father's day. so i tot of how i i often see my dad.

like this. looking in the rearview mirror while he's driving.

anw ytd was the very first outing with that puspa, bryan, after bmt.

darius with the city as a backdrop.

darius emo-ing. pic is heavily photoshopped. hah

then today just studied till 3am and woke up at 10am. stonned around till abt 3 plu, then went to meet bryan, lydia and danna to play tennis. played till 6pm then we washed up and played bridge till 7 odd. and now i'm home.

CAMP photos are here:

- credit goes to wei hong for all the shots

i'm totally addicted to this sunrise photo.

and this.

THE REST ARE FOR YOUR VIEWING AND LAUGHING PLEASURE.

again, like the youth camp, these are some of my favourites

LAUGHING OVER HERE.

so thats about it!

ciaos!

2008-06-14T15:14:00.003+08:00

whoooo! finally back from one week of camp! it was a good one. for me i learnt many new lessons, made new friends, strengthen bonds and saw the side of people you don't usually do. at first when i found out on the first day that i was dorming with my bro, i was quite unhappy, cos its like you see him everyday. and now you see him again. but anyway. i learnt things from him and i guess he did from me too. God's will!

so anyway this is roughly what happened over the six days i was away with no internet connection! lol

9th June:
... slept at 3am cause i was excited abt cant and woke up at 5:45 to get ready. then met uncle steven and aunty michelle to get fetched to church with jan and sis. reached there to realize that i didn't bring my earphones for my iPod. gosh. thankfully got rachel to lend me her's. left for Batu Pahat at 8am and reached there in time for lucnh cos there was a major jam at tuas. after lunch was the ice breakers where we did station games. rounded it up with abit of free time before dinner. after that was singing and the first msg from David Macloed. interesting subjects. but i was so tired during the first two msgs that i was dozing off here and there. ended the day with supper and dorm d.

10th June:
woke up at 7:30am yes, yes i din go for morning exercise. my body clock was super messed up before the camp, so getting the day started at 7+ was a wee bit hard. anw, quick QT and then went for breakfast. and for the next few days it would be singing and the msgs with BS. My BS grp was/is super FUN! haha, enjoyed the daily dicussions, with hilarious results. and i was the only guy till thurs when bryan and lucius came to join me! after lunch was the games at this stadium with alooooot of mosquitoes la. anw, there was danish longball, captains ball and ultimate frisbee! and i got to get my hand on weihong's (church toh weihong, not sch's toh weihong) D40x! wahaha. i was snap happy! haha! back to the hotel for rest, dinner and the first workshop was by uncle Andrew Kwan, on ambitions. then was supper, dorm d and sleep.

11th June:
7:30am again, with the usual morning schedule and the 3rd msg. BS was still as fun. by now you would have realized that im doing alot of condensing, cos im super tired, but i felt like typing abit before i go to sleep. after lunch were the movie screenings on - the forth wise man, the source of love, facing the giants and the way home. din go forany of the movies cos i had to study or rather work on my IAD project which is only half done man. die! did work with danna, john mark, jon boon, tim-o and benben. haha i was quite productive, i guess. played badminton and frisbee with rachel and lydia for awhile before dinner and the second workshop on worship by uncle Kian Huat. went up to share points that the BS group and i discussed, but i was so darn nervous, ok maybe not so much but just the keowledege that you got 200 pairs of eyes looking at you freaked me out a little. the rest of the night, supper, dorm d and sleeeep.

12th June:
7:30 yet again, and now you would have just come to the conclusion that i never did got for one morning exercise. true! but i wanted to go on that day but guess what, it rained. so the usual morning stuff and the 4th msg. BS with the peeps when bryan and lucius came, whahaha, and lunch followed before i went to play soccer and frisbee and, yar thats it. probably swimming too. dinner and singing, before the last workshop by uncle Kuang Cheng on spiritual gifts. and yup you know what happens next. at that point i just began to realize how fast time passes when you're having fun. 4 days gone so fast.

13th June:
last full day of camp was here. oh gosh. and i remember it like it was just yesterday. eh wait, it was yesterday. anw, 7:30 for the last time. singing and prayer before the last camp msg. on the unity and our reconciliation with God. BS and lunch. Camper's Nite prep with the group which i guess in 3 hours, was very productive, and dinner followed. and camper's night came and went like a few minutes. after supper, this time was the camp reflection by the campers. and as it is customary for the last night for youths to stay up late and go crazy, we did just that. 11pm on - matt, linus, lucius, nat chia, amos, darius and i were on a one hour singing spree (which combined with the lack of sleep, gives you a running nose and a bad cough.) while others played frisbee.

14th June:
...past 12am, this almost drunk nutcase caused sortofa mass hysteria among us. so girls had to be escoted back to their dorms. watched the italy vs. romania match and the rest of the night was just plain crazy for jet, brandon, cedric, ly, clara, ben, john mark, seng hean, danna and mua. bidged and taiti-ed alot before it was only left with ly, danna, clara, ben and i. talked for awhile before going back to our dorms. they din sleep and neither did i. i watched 2 movies in the room and took a ten minute snooze before it was time to wake up. had breakfast with the guys and then it was time to go. camp had sadly ended and i slept on the way back to SG in a "rollercoaster" busride. home, i we had to do house work. and now im typing here.

i can't believe i actually typed it out in one sitting. oh well.

CAMP WAS A SPIRITUALLY, MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY GREAT CAMP!

see you guys tmr

`tobewhatHewantsmetobe

2008-06-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE SINGAPORE.

BACK IN ONE WEEK! CIAO!

2008-06-08T02:15:00.004+08:00

ahhh...(the relaxed way, not the frustrated ahhh)

its 2:15 in the morning and i just finished doing the laundry. and i have no idea why i'm here when i'm that tired.

but i guess i do have to blog.

effectively, ytd went out with sis to do some shopping for slippers, i bought my havianas, while nat bought a new wallet and ripples slippers and i met zarina who was working at hula and co., haha small world, and for the first time in history she spent more in one day then me. anw, went to carls jr. for lunch. then made our way, nat to amk and i to depot. stayed there for awhile, but in that time i learnt smth abt family. after that went to meet the class peeps to go to liwen's house for her 21st birthday celebration. haha it was crazy la.

no.1 we were on a helium craze. got a video but im not gonna upload. haha
no.2 the food we had was great
no.3 ...

...when we left liwen's house, dear jamie went to take like 17-18 balloons to tie it to my back and the guys made sure i din take it out. gosh! it was the most embarrassing time sia. esp when we were at DG. walao, i got more eyes and attention then the president on National Day la. so many people were like looking and laughing la. then they guys pretend not to know me. sian. haha, then these two cute little girls saw me with the balloons, and they were like " i want", so anw i gave them one whole bunch, haha, so ok la less embarrassing. but still, i'll never want that much attention again.

that many balloons.

and thus this concludes yesterday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIWEN! ((:

`whydoeseverythingyoudomakemewannasmile

2008-06-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

i'm totally disgusted.

anyway

WAHOOOO! 3 weeks immortality here i come! shiokness man! haha, today wasn't as bad as i had tot it to be. i expected jimmy's reports to be rushed and stuff but haha. cos i managed to study ytd, i got it done! wahahaha. and at the last minute, michael wee, cancelled the lab test on Flash Lite! haha.

so i guess term ONE of year 3 ended on a good note. YAY!

yea and this is a song i just got to share. it speaks to many of us and about the lives that we lead. are they fake? or are they one we are proud of?

"Stained Glass Masquerade" - Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails

Is there anyone that falls

Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around

Everybody seems so strong

I know they'll soon discover

That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay

If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too

So with a painted grin, I play the part again

So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people

Under shiny plastic steeples

With walls around our weakness

And smiles to hide our pain

But if the invitation's open

To every heart that has been broken

Maybe then we close the curtain

On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there

Are there any hands to raise

Am I the only one who's traded

In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing

And we know every line by heart

Only when no one is watching

Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free

If I dared to let you see

The truth behind the person

That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open

Or would you walk away

Would the love of Jesus

Be enough to make you stay

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

2008-06-04T20:47:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO!

2 more days to 3 weeks immortality! haha i so cant wait for my break to come! but school is still as sucky as usual. don't know how to make the hols start, and so i gotta submit 4 reports and have one test during the last 2 lessons before i can start the hols.

i soooo cant wait for ABC! one good break and refreshment in more ways then one. and i cant finally start on my long procrastinated 1k page novel! haha. ive been delaying these few years by only reading 500 page story books. but as it seems, school has to follow me wherever i go. i still gotta do work during ABC. sian. aiyah but its the final year alr. press on!

and im finally getting down to go buy my slippers/sandals on sat. liwen's 21st in the evening, so i'll be missing the dinner gang. viwawa-ing to pass time and boring to death. anw. i just hope i can a DSLR!!! i want a D40x. but its like super ex la. 1K sia. so bo pian have to slowly save los.

anw ciaos.

`untiltheend

2008-06-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

i guess china and france are not for me. no OIPP. should i be happy or sad?

2008-05-31T00:00:00.003+08:00

WEEKEND!!!

one more week to term break!!! whoohoo!!! ONE MORE WEEK!!!

which means effectively i only have 2 and a half months left of soild studying before NS. shucks. time really flies. then after that will be FYP and attachment. anw enough worrying for now.

happy weekend

2008-05-25T20:20:00.002+08:00

well. its a new week! wahaha its 2 more weeks till the term break comes! for the SP and RP ppl one more week, good los! i just cant wait for it to be here! i so need the break!

anyway today during CEP we did the last 4 chapters of 2 chornicles. and bryan came from depot to visit! haha. and frankly i cant really remember the week except all the reports and projects. nuts, hais. thats why i can't wait for school to be over but i don't want army to come either. sian.

anyway enough of typing. pictures.

ytd at YP. saw this nice sunset.

and during the course of the week i was reading up on ambigrams (which mean that the words that are formed can be read different ways and appear the same, thus symmetrical, and in most cases - upright and upside down). so i tried a few on my own and came up with...

this.

and this. and because its drawn i guess its just ALMOST symmetrical. anyway if you are interested in ambigrams, just google: john langdon ambigrams

rmb this picture? (the one below)

yea. this pic was taken last year when we guys were more or less grown up already.

and when i was packing my room during the week. i came across this picture.

gosh. yes, its us like almost 10 years ago. cool right! come to think of it, its crazy of me to put this up. if any of the guys see this, i'm dead. haha.

and yar thats all for this week. till the next post

bye.

`butyoursmilestillmakesmyheartweak

2008-05-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

i guess its back to school tmr after the relatively long weekend.

the recent weeks have not only been physically demanding, but also mentally and emotionally. recently, i allowed my mind to wonder alot and this made me feel really lousy. but i do thank God alot for the family and friends who have been there for me. it's made me remember that God puts the ones He loves in trials so that we learn to trust and depend more on Him. i can't just rely on my own strength but to stand in His strength alone. and that i have His promise, isaiah 46:4

anyway today was a cool day. woke up at 0800 to meet the guys for soccer at SP and played till around 1100. it was cool. its been a long time since it has been an all guys outing and bonding with each other. came home and had lunch with family and slacked arnd before doing work, watched this movie call the "bicentennial man". was a romantic comedy. then headed down to the leong's house for dinner. and now im here.

well i guess its time to get back to work and sleep soon.

ciaos

`standinginYourstrengthalone

2008-05-15T23:55:00.003+08:00

2 more days it'll be over!

anw today school was ok. i guess it was fun esp. during c.k.thum's lesson nana made thum so sianned cos he couldn't answer a question thn thum was like. ".............." =.='

man. ICT project idea due next tues, along with IAD project brief. sian. heng tmr friday man. finally i get my weekend. whoohoo.

anw. today was gg thru this car website and i came across these funny pictures. these are car logos when they were....guess what...babies

ahh this is obvious. cute. lol

haha. now lambo's no power. calf nia. haha

maserati. wahaha

wait wait before you scroll any further. the next is what i considered the funniest. go!

JAGUAR!!!

anw. yea thats all.

niggghts.

2008-05-12T22:37:00.002+08:00

my head is sooo gonna explode soon.

comm. skills: company study - will be tmr. ICT project with xueting - prelimminary idea due tmr i think. cover letter and resume also due tmr. infotainment project description due next tuesday, m.a.d project development soon, mct report writing rush.

and i just realised today that it was the first time today tht i attended OSWD lecture in the past 3 weeks. ive been pon-ning. die. but ok la still can understand.

kill me.

2008-05-11T00:25:00.004+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers!

anw i really wanted to blog abt today, or rather yesterday but...

less then one hour ago, this happened to almost 10 million blogs around the world, cos google tot the peoples blogs were VIRUSES! this left me really angry for some reason or another.

ok so anyway, yesterday was a rather interesting day. slpt at 0430 in the morning cos i couldn't slp and watched an inspirational movie called "Gridiron Gang". then i woke up at 1045 cos i couldn't slp anymore. gosh, its been SIX days since i last had a proper meal (random me typing)and im still sick, anyway left for YP and happened to bump into Danna at Queenstown, so we went to church tgt la. ya so, lead singing at YP today, then after the singing, ytd's YP session was exploring the ever so famous topic of BGR and the christian views on various aspects of this dynamic consideration. after YP, played table tennis with a few guys and then captian's ball los. dinner time with the dinner gang was ok cos well my control on eating is getting better i guess, all of us were like thinking of what to get for our mums. last minute shoppers. coming home talked to sis for awhile, actually for almost 40 mins, haha then came online and yea im here now. thanks to Nicole i got a few more pictures on FD on the 1st May.

this was one photo i wished nobody would see, but well since it was posted. whatever la.... i looked constipated and Naomi looks like shes laughing at me looking like an idiot. lol. oh, to the guys whom i told that the ball was on my head, heres proof. haha. XP

and this is just one of the cutest pictures you can ever find. the jia siblings minus the other three. ahh jia yi is sooo cute. haha, and of course Wesley WONG not ng too.

anw its late. so nigghts

`ificouldn'tseethoseeyes

2008-05-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

9 down. 33 to go. don't try what you did again! FOCUS!

2008-05-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

14 days, 42 meals. i can do it! i must!

2008-05-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

home early. i'm usually still out at this time, but the YP dinner gang was only 5 people big today. there was joan, josh, jolene, elena and i, and we had dinner at Botak Jones. cos i suggested, but we din have the botak's food. i had a starfruit juice, teh-o and kaya toast. the rest had other food.

anw, at YP today did Mark 14.

(sorry, if the post is like in random parts its because i'm tired and not in the right frame of mind.)

after dinner which was still super early compared to usual standards, we taked awhile and headed to queenstown, on the train home i was "abused" by having elena's springy ball thing thrown at me. lol.

i'm soo not feeling well. my stomach has been killing me since this morning. ytd's supper. i'm so sick of the toilet alr!

anw i'm going to slp now.

`istillthinkofusonceinawhile

P.S Happy Birthday to: Qi An, Reann, Ying Lun and Jasmine in 1hr 45 mins time.

2008-05-03T00:31:00.002+08:00

ahh. finally home after a super long day.

went to school at 10am today. had long long lessons, ended at 5pm and met up with dad and mum for dinner. went "shopping" and reached home at 11pm to find noah still on the com and nat still mugging.

before that went to long beach for supper. it was probably the most expensive and third latest timing. anyway this was supper. *points down*

this oyster is like super biiiigg la. serious. it was at least 12 cm long man!

thn this is the so called "medium" chilli crab that turned out to be soo big. haha everything was big at the table. lol

anyway, long day ahead. nights

`we'llberunningsofastwecouldfly

2008-05-01T19:42:00.004+08:00

haha yes. actually i don't know why i said that. anyway, this post marks my 300th post. thats not alot but still, 3 digits.

anyway today was AFD@ ACJC, it was from 0830 till 1700 just now. it was a great day seeing everyone in sports attire and the same shirts, probably just different colours thats all. started the day with a msg frm uncle david goh, spoke in the seven ONE-ders. then it was games time, started with...eh i forgot. ah thn it was the... oh man im getting forgetful. thn it was, yes, the water bombs and the highlight which was the "earth" ball game. it was like 7 ppl a side pushing an 8 ft wide ball, smth like rugby style. then it was lunch, where the army buddies and i managed to catch up a fair bit. and finally in the afternoon were the track events. haha overall, came in third. ok la, considering that we were the last all the way frm the start. viva la yellows!played abit of touch rug and hockey after the event. and then came home for a cold shower which felt great and a warm nice dinner. oh, HAPPY 21st ANNIVERSARY to mum and dad.

anyways, picture time. not really exciting ones tho' i kinda took out my camera at the wrong times.

my yellow peeps, not the whole grp la. the rest are behind me or somewhere in the area.

yes, WE are ONE!

oh did i mention, i got lobster-rized (meaning i gotroasted under the sun and now i am as the above.)

well thats about all that i have today. sian, back to school tmr, take care army buddies.

`nevertoolate

2008-04-29T21:26:00.004+08:00

Overseas Internship Program & Project (OIPP) briefing was today. places that i can apply for and will go if my application is successful will be either one of these.

Beijing IT College - 2 months
IVT, Suzhou - 1 month
Guangzhou, China - 5 months
HP @ Dalian - 5 months
Paris, France - 3 months

God, if i do get accepted, whether in Singapore or some foreign land, help me accept what You've given me even though its a long long long long time away from family and friends i love. help me.

`ificouldn'tseethoseeyes

2008-04-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

man, finally week 2 of school is over! 6 weeks to term break and 16 weeks till sem break.

welcome home, bryan and lucius frm 2 weeks at tekong.

when i first thought that the Overseas Attachment Program was cool, i guess i was wrong, and now i MIGHT just kena that and go to some other country for 5 mths. hais. well if kena boh pian los. i might just enjoy it anw. but 5 MTHS?! eee..

well ive got more to type but im super shagged from a whole day out.

bye.

2008-04-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

When You Look Me In The Eyes - Jonas Brothers

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

2008-04-21T21:42:00.001+08:00

guess what? my handphone bill hit the roof, so did my dad.

crap.

`whenyoulookmeintheeyes

2008-04-17T21:06:00.003+08:00

well the first week of school is almost ending.

i must say that the timetable is ok la. i do get to sleep in, but the ending times are totally making me a no lifer. 6pm almost every other day. sheesh. the lessons that im doing now will probably bore the crap out of anyone. this and that. it doesn't make a diiference. all thats different is probably the module name. Mobile Internet Solutions - thats my specialzation, and crap! it does live up to its name. every module besides comm. skills and NE is purely on mobile programming and the internet! thats super stupid and hopelessly putting me to sleep. but well i gotta love it, cos i might just end up doing it for the next 40 years of my life.

sorry there aren't any photos. i mean how intresting can school get? ya, it can but with intresting stuff happening la. but as of now the intrest levels are at WAY BELOW ZERO!

well on the brighter note, today was the first time, my new class actually felt like a class. it was more lively and we spoke with each other (guys/girls from the other classes) instead of our usual cliques and pervious module groups. brings a smile to me. and guess who was it all because of, not me la, it was because of "wonderful" Mr. C K Thum, who because of May Day wanted to do a make up lesson and we couldn't decide when we should have it. and blah it all started. and mind you, HE is the lecturer that i'm having for the 3rd semester straight.

anyway, its been a loooooong time since i said this, or maybe even never, homework calls.

so ciao.

2008-04-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

yep. day one of the 3rd year was ok. could have been better. and i kinda know why you don't see all your lecturers for more thn one semester, they get boring. the first four periods we taken by lecturers from previous semesters. thursday, im seeing one that i've seen for the past two semesters. which yes, if your math is good, THREE semesters in a row. sianness. comm skills is the first module tmr, and i heard that the lecturer is the module head and she is down right (left up) strict to the core la. the classmates aren't fantastic either. not to say im the best guy for a classmate. 8 weeks to term break, and 17 to a short 2 week break before my attachment. i want to go overseas and not come back( i wish, the goverment will send me to the real prison if i dont come back to do my two year "sentence").

ciao.

2008-04-13T22:05:00.002+08:00

Well, school for the poly peeps (except those in TP(extra kias)) start tmr! all the best to the new Yr 1's, and you're half way there Yr 2's. Lastly Yr 3's chiong ah, its the last long long lap alr. ganbatte!

well today did my first leading in CEP, i took 2 Chr 9-12. 13 couldnt be covered cos not enuf time. it was a good experience, it was totally unlike the SS days. i wouldnt say i did a good job but well. ok la.

hmm.

maybe if we met under a different sky, then maybe things would be much better between you and i.

`onelast

2008-04-11T11:52:00.004+08:00

7 random facts about me:
1)i love God, saved by grace (eh grace don't laugh! haha)
2)i am a very random person
3)i talk alot of rubbish
4)i love to do anything that has to do with cooking (including the eating afterwards)
5)i suck at IT (even tho' i'm doing the course)
6)i love to design stuff
7)i love to sit by my bed and stare out the window when it's raining

7 things that scares me:
1)insects
2)no more food
3)computer down
4)angry parents
5)the world without internet
6)studying
7)being the last guy on earth

7 random music at the moment:
1)taylor swift's music
2)fan blade's music
3)leaves rustling in the wind music
4)birds chirping music (i wished they'll stopped)
5)one republic's music
6)someone with keys at the door music (could be the neighbour)
7)stomach rumbling music

7 things i say the most:
1)huh?
2)eh
3)for what?!
4)haha
5)LOL!
6)OI!
7)whats for breakfast/lunch/dinner?

7 People to do this:
1)grace wouldn't want to do this agn so no
2)the clowns who are in army
3)some random person reading
4)if you're still laughing
5)if you tot i was lame
6)don't agree with me, do yourself la (<- what i just said was totally singaporean, forgive the english) 7)still can't stop laughing?

2008-04-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

school is starting in 3 days.

lucius just went in today.

and is it that hard for us to just talk? does anything in our past mean anything at all? just as a friend, as a brother. it seems that this drift can't be closed or can it? i dunno. till thn, i'm just me. feel free talk to me anytime, anywhere. i'll be here, as a friend, no more no less.

2008-04-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

well school i starting in 5 days time. i'm trying to enjoy every spare moment of my final holiday before yr3 strikes.

well todays post is not abt school or how my new timetable has some adverse effects with my sleeping time.

this post is dedicated to bryan chan. this clown brother of mine will be entering army tmr and well. i'm gonna miss him. like who am i gg to talk to till late into the night on msn (tho still got other ppl but different la). or who is gg to go with us to soeul garden. or who will be with there at the sleep overs and talking the most nonsense and condeming me abt being "emo". man, take care in there.

next would be for lucius tan, who will be gg in on thursday. the drummer boy, band addict, in charge of SS song item. the kan choeng spider, born 13 days after me guy, whose hair is like suuuper long. eh take care too.

and to xinan, jordan and yinchi who are alr inside. xinan being in OCS. i know you are dying to get out frm the crazy 3 week confinement, cos i couldnt stand 4 days away from home alr. and jordan who is sick of sispec and yinchi who thinks its also boring there. yo. i'll be joining you guys soon. say 1 year?

i'm slowly being more lonely when my closest friends get away. esp if its like what 2 years, wah and only weekends home. crazy la. and so as of now. it will be jp, wei hao, james and me.

amos, darius and roo. will agreee that bryan gg will be really sian. even this morning after 60+ rounds of bridge, a sleepless crazy night and a pizza lunch. we still have to accept that its bryan's time to go army. next me, then amos and dar, roo you gotta wait. anw tts abt all im gg to type for today.

2008-04-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

well. mummy is going back to work after her 3 and a half year hiatus. man that means:

1. No more home cooked food
2. No mum to say "Hi" to when i reach home
3. No more seeing her so often anymore.

man.

anw CEP today was cool, went thru 2 Chornicles 4-8. learnt some life applications. and rfg did singing at COPA Gospel. dad gave the msg. and we went for dinner with the leongs. came home. stonned and finished my book. and now i gtg slp cos i gotta wake up tmr to go to sch to buy yr3 books. school officially starts in 7 days. well. its finally my final year in poly. and when the time is come i'll be enlisting for amry already. there is a point in time where a boys become men and this is probably one time for me to learn.

anw. ciao

2008-04-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

i don't have to be sensitive. do i?

so, you know what. screw sensitivity.

2008-03-29T22:56:00.003+08:00

i've never felt better in a million years.

its taken me a long time to see what God wants for me. but now i do!

-reeetard wants another holiday!

2008-03-28T23:02:00.003+08:00

Well got back from genting ytd. i totally love the weather there! it was like 13^oC there at night and a cool 20^oC at midday, not the waves of blistering heat in SG. but well. nevertheless, i'm glad to be back, cos like even tho' there were like 1000's of people there, i felt like i was excommunicated from the world with no internet connection! and well being home sick sucks.

i'm gonna be frank, im gonna blog less from now on, and im gonna be explicit and blunt on how i feel.

one such incident, just now at work, some clown, no matter what the reason, decided to wipe his/her sled clean by jumping out his/her window. that i call stupid and irresponsible. only idiots with those tendencies will bother to carry them out. pity them? no way. stupid cos you think it'll clear your problems. ONLY YOURS. irresponsible, cos you never thought of your family before you did that. selfish, cos only YOUR problems were solved, stupidly.

ending,

will you just believe it, there nothing between me and her. sheesh.