today today..was sorta horrible for me..tho i woke up on call..i was like total tried out and i couldnt evn concentate in worship..the ministry was still ok as i tried hard to stay up and managed to get thru it..after that was song practise for the gospel meeting in november..then the guys and i rushed over for breakfast a our whole table had bah chor mee..lols..then cos uncle david is in mayanmar..so uncle vincent took over and after it all the JC2's commented that it was the first week that we were so quiet( but when we're noisy we are at active discussion) following that we left from church for lunch then to grandma's to pay her a visit..and still horribly shacked i still had to go to my aunts house..for her house warming.

this morning i had this dream that i got to hold her hand and was able to be with her even in one of her saddest moments in life..but well i guess that its not God's will that i can be with her..cos well i guess that she's happier with that someone else..

well this lines are just running thru my mind now..i'm going crazy crazy crazy

"just a thought of you and i leave the rest of the world behind"

i DIDN'T mean to fall in love but i DID

well school starts tml just another semester and i better do well this time..God i need help...not only to do well but to forget her as well..i just want to get on with school and make her that distant memory...to do nothing with her and just treat her as a friend..nothing more nothing less...study study study

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gotlost at 9:12 PM;